I gotta say I’m a bit concerned here.

One would think I’d be losing my mind over the removal of my nicotine vape that was attached to me 24/7, but that’s not the case. It’s been 8 days and I’m semi fine.

Yes, breaking the habit isn’t easy but I don’t obsess over the vape nearly to the extent I’m still obsessing over gluten filled foods I can’t have.

September 11th was my first day gluten free so we are just over 40+ days without gluten and I am STILL brought to tears daily thinking about Raisin Bran. It’s pathetic, I’m aware.

If that’s not an eating disorder I don’t know what the fuck is, add that to the list of shit for therapy I guess✌🏻

Luckily I’m not having nearly the same GI issues as I was having when I went into the hospital (the symptoms DID improve with the removal of the vape) but I’m still in pain at least once a day- never the same type of pain either it’s weird.

I’m also having issues where large meals are making me pass out? My physical pain level is getting higher than normal but I’m also off of all forms of pain meds (I don’t even take Tylenol or Motrin anymore, let alone any of the stronger pain meds and for the last few years I was pretty reliant on those over the counter options)

I have zero faith of getting any form of assistance from the medical profession in regards to what was causing the blood or all these issues but if I have learned anything in the last 5 years of being chronically ill is that most doctors truly just don’t care anymore. Not sure if it’s burn out, staffing issues, or just capitalism ruining things but it’s sad when people are getting sicker and sicker while our providers are getting cases of the fuck it’s.

Has anyone else noticed a decline in the healthcare they are receiving?