I managed to make it 90 days off the nicotine vapes, which is the first time I’ve been able to accomplish this outside of my time being pregnant. I do not count quitting for pregnancy as it wasn’t a choice and I foolishly picked it back up each time post birth.

I’m beyond lucky that quitting the nicotine vapes cured all those crazy GI issues I was having. I had seriously been concerned that at some point this year I was going to be shitting in a bag that’s attached to my stomach with the things that google was showing me as possible options based on symptoms. Yes it was stupid to google but we have all been guilty of that at some point or another.

I wish I could say that I don’t still crave nicotine, because I do. Oddly enough I’ve been having cigarette cravings on a semi regular basis. Luckily with cigarettes I’m well aware they taste absolutely horrific and after so many years of not smoking them at all I would likely end up vomiting and being dizzy. I can torture myself by smelling my coworkers but I can at least logic my way out of actually smoking one.

Addiction is a bitch, but I have to say that as a whole the one thing I see most people struggle with is nicotine. Nicotine isn’t shamed like opiate use is and society has glamorized smoking when it comes to our television and movies. It’s not painted as a bad thing like typical drug addiction is. One thing that always made me laugh was the people in 12 step programs who would demonize psychiatric medications claiming they were considered drugs while simultaneously sucking on their own kind of drug with their cigarettes.

I would hope that over time the longer I’ve been off the nicotine the less I think about it. Considering it’s been over 6 years since I’ve had any form of a cigarette and I still crave those my expectation is pretty low. As usual my motto for this one is “expect the worst, hope for the best”.