I’m grateful that my paycheck from the restaurant actually came thru this morning, I woke up at 3am in a sheer terror yesterday when I realized my paycheck hadn’t come in. It was an accident and I knew that but I still freaked out. The anxiety was god awful, especially since I’m now the only one working.

I’m grateful that despite a scary 15 hours of struggling I was able to by some miracle fix the new printer that had gotten locked during set up. It was horrible thinking we were going to have to buy yet another printer this week after the 4+ hours of driving I had to get this current one. My poor husband had really been struggling with that so I was really happy that for once I was of use when it came to the printer (normally I rely on him to fix that stuff).

I’m grateful that I was able to get monetized through my linktree account to earn commissions- that’s a huge help given our crisis with my husband’s employment going up in flames. The linktree not only includes the links for our business/socials but the “shop” tab has a TON of brand name products, many are heavily discounted! Perfect example one just one of these would be the Nike kids puffer vests, they are normally $85 and thru my shop link they are $59! There’s quite a few lower cost items as well. Check out the shop here https://linktr.ee/babydaddybrands

I’m grateful that I can finally finish my open orders in the morning. This week has been one crisis after the next so to get that done will be a weight off my shoulders. I’m not pushing myself to go make shirts and tumblers after working all day at the restaurant- that’s just asking for me to make a mistake but at least it’s not a continued delay. I won’t lie, when stuff goes wrong with the business it does trigger me in a way that I can’t exactly describe.

I’d like to think I’m this peaceful zen little stoner but in all actuality sometimes I’m like a bomb waiting to detonate at any moment- and issues with the business go right up my ass. I’m not sure if it’s leftover trauma from the cloth diaper psychopaths or the horrible former customers I had that would harass and yell at me over things I honestly had nothing to do with or if I’m just that much of a perfectionist that issues equate to failure. Maybe it’s a mix of the two. I do know this week I went to a level 3 Karen on this poor kid at staples when the assholes lost a customers order. I did play nice for the first 15 mins of the interaction but once the kid went to circle back to blaming pirate ship for their own mishandling of a parcel I just lost it. Not sure how loud I actually was but management was there with a quickness trying to fix it. They didn’t fix it, on brand for me sadly.

I’m grateful for my couch set that I stupidly overpaid for. For the longest time we had questionable Amazon furniture that was cheap and ended up falling apart. When our youngest became more mobile we invested in multiple nugget couches. We used those as our sole living room furniture for a bit, then added in gamer chairs that were ridiculously uncomfortable- again another bullshit Amazon purchase. Out of desperation for a decent thing to sit on we went down to Aaron’s and sold our souls for a couch set. It would have been totally affordable and fine if we had paid off the entire $1,500 in the 4 month period that was interest free but unfortunately at that exact same time the transmission in my last vehicle was on its way out and I was having weekly car repairs that took priority over the couch payments….. Oops. By the time I remembered it was too late- the new total was just shy of $3,000. These couches will be staying with me until they are in shreds for that amount of money. Until this crazy car loan I hadn’t even been spending that kind of money on cars. But again, I’ve never once claimed to be intelligent.