I’ve been slacking with this blog majorly the last couple weeks. Life got turned upside down when my coworker ended up in the ICU and I have been covering almost all of the shifts. I needed more hours but I didn’t want them in the manner in which I got them, I feel horrible that something bad happened and I somehow benefited from it. I would have rather been covering shifts because someone went on vacation or was doing ANYTHING positive, I feel icky as hell that it came from such a bad situation.

With going from 15-25 hours a week to over 50 hours my brains become a pile of mush and days are now blending into each other. I absolutely don’t know my head from my ass anymore and have been on autopilot the last 2 weeks just dragging my body to these shifts and hoping my mind eventually follows. Clearly it’s not impacting my job performance as I’ve gotten way better tips and more compliments this time around than I did in years past when I’ve been serving.

I haven’t had the time to be depressed or really feel anything except for sheer exhaustion. The Valentine’s Day marathon was the first of my four day stretch of open to close shifts and it absolutely sent my mind for a tizzy. I wish I had taken a picture but we ended up with 200 red napkins that were folded like hearts but to me looked way too much like butt cracks, I couldn’t unsee that one.

My ability to function has been held together my caffeine, marijuana, and brownie batter donuts from Dunkin’ lately. Why on earth dunks hasn’t capitalized to make those a year round product yet is beyond me. I did try the box of chocolates version they offered this year- all but the brownie batter were a bitter disappointment.

I’m grateful, my silence and lack of posting doesn’t mean otherwise in the slightest. Life’s just been too busy to actually find the time to update this blog as much as I’d like, deepest apologies for that one.