I didn’t get nearly the amount of writing in this past month that I wanted to. Working all the extra hours and life life-ing has prevented me from keeping up with updating this as much as I’d like. I was hoping this wouldn’t be one of the hyper fixations I inevitably lose interest in- but it’s looking as if I need to pivot my time to things that include income more so than hobbies.

I won’t sit here and say things are all bad. My husband still hasn’t been able to find another job but I have been unbelievably lucky to have been able to pick up as many shifts as I have the past month. With just the restaurant job I worked 23 out of 28 days last month- many of those days were open to close shifts. When my husband first lost his job my immediate panic was rent and my car payments. I’ve managed to keep ahead on both which is something I struggled to do even when he was working.

One plus side of being so busy is I haven’t had time to be depressed or upset. It’s hard to give much of a fuck when you’re running on fumes and pushing yourself to the max. I’m grateful as fuck that I had detoxed myself off that antidepressant because with the loss of my husband’s employment came the loss of my health insurance and access to affordable medication. We just now today finally got word that we have coverage again, but it was almost an entire month of worrying about that one before it worked out.

It’s weird to say but I do believe my husband losing his job is the best thing that could have happened for us as a family and couple. That job had been making him truly miserable but because of the consistent paycheck and insurance benefits he never would have left there on his own despite wanting to leave the last 2 years he had worked there. Since not being there our marriage and home life have dramatically improved- which means a lot that such a good thing could come out of such a horrible situation. I guess things not going as planned didn’t mean the end of the world.

Considering I paid for this blog for the full year I’m going to continue to try and update it as much as possible. Clicking any of the links in these blog posts DOES help me, even if you don’t purchase anything. The fact as many people have read these blog posts as they have has been mind blowing and much appreciated!