I started this blog with every intention of keeping up with it. I had hopes of one day being able to organize it into something that’s actually worthy of reading. It seems when I find myself in a state of comfort that life seems to throw something ridiculous at me. In October it was the shitting quarts of blood, in December it was the dental crisis, and in February it was my husband (the breadwinner of the household) losing his job unexpectedly. Life has been consistently throwing challenges at me that have prevented me from being at a place where I can spend time on a hobby such as this without an immense amount of guilt.

Although my husband still hasn’t found another job we have managed to get by with me picking up extra shifts at the restaurant as much as I can. By nothing short of a miracle I was able to refinance my car so I don’t have to trade it in. That one alone has been a major stress off my shoulders with cutting my car loan interest rate in half. I never should have been given that original loan in the first place, the timing of the refinancing coming right when I was working 50 hours a week was a sheer Hail Mary. I had been really concerned about having to sell that car so to be able to keep it means more than I can say.

Last month I discovered that my linktree account was monetized and I could earn commissions- one of those being on Misfit Market new users. I didn’t feel right promoting a product I had never actually tried, so I went ahead and used my own discount link and signed up for a subscription. I’ve been reviewing them on my social media, in all actuality I probably should have used this platform for that one since I paid for this blog access for an entire year…. Oops.

Above are just some of our favorites we have tried so far. Out of 3 full orders there’s only been a couple products I wouldn’t get again. I’ve been forcing my coworkers to try a lot of these as well because I wanted some unbiased feedback. They have been great sports about me shoving various food products in their faces each shift. I did end up signing up for the misfit plus membership for additional discounts on products and shipping, so far I don’t have any complaints with that one! For 20% off your first order use https://tr.ee/vMiqFW4j_G

I wish I could say I have things figured out and that my anxiety about life is better in the slightest, but that would be a lie. I’ve managed to compartmentalize shockingly better than I have in the past. I’m not sure if I’m just completely used to chaos and the sheer terror brings its own sense of comfort, but I seem to thrive when situations are beyond fucked up. I keep reminding myself that as long as I pay my rent everything else will work itself out- not sure if I full believe that but it’s been forcing me to get through the day to day without totally losing my mind.

My husband and I have managed to keep up with the weekly date nights, those are something I don’t take for granted in the slightest. We have gotten a new sense of normal and routine that’s a lot different than the switching off/always at work that we had become accustomed to the last few years. It feels weird to say it, but him getting fired from that job absolutely saved our marriage in more ways than I can explain. He never would have willingly left that job on his own so the universe did for him what he couldn’t do for himself. It’s not a typical dynamic but it works amazingly well for our family.

I wish I had something more profound or useful to share outside these random updates where I explain that even though my life is still a disaster I am semi happy/functional/okay with it all.