I’m super grateful we found this spot by my work to check out this week for my weekly hiking outing. It was super cool and totally worth it! The entrance from the street is a bit tricky because there’s no signs but when you walk towards the back of the open field there’s a trail entrance that’s marked. This one was Grassy Pond Conservation Trail!

I’m grateful for having my sublimation printer back up and running. As much as I complained about the business over the last six years (including even full blown quitting at one point) I’m really blessed to still have the amount of support for it that I do. Most businesses don’t survive the first five years, let alone when you put in as little effort as I did over the years.

I’m grateful for the customers at my work, although some can be a royal pain in the ass we do truly have a lot of amazing regulars. I’m really glad I’ve gotten the chance to know them over the last 3 years and they are definitely an unforgettable bunch.

I can’t sit here and say things are great. I’m doing a lot of the fake it to you make it and just showing up. My jaw is permanently clenched, I have horrible nightmares about Greg, I cry all the time, and I have to force myself to eat. I feel like half a person and not much has worked to fix that.

Drugs obviously aren’t an option, alcohol kills my stomach, cigarettes are too expensive, dating apps are filled with emotionally challenged fuck boys, so I’m stuck going to therapy and hoping that eventually I won’t feel like a shell of a person.

That being said, I did traumatize myself by accident when I went snooping thru one of my ex’s old iPhones to see if maybe there were clues on his ChatGPT account about the brand of crazy he is and boy did I hit the motherload with that discovery. I don’t think I will be able to sleep for days after reading that shit. I feel like there’s gotta be a spot for me on “Who the fuck did I marry?” after this shindig.

Not only am I more afraid of him now than I was, but I’m also beyond upset that when I resubmitted the chat logs with the context of this man went insane and is now in prison all of a sudden the app starts pointing out where every single conversation the app instead of suggesting mental health help or to even see a doctor instead fed into the sick fucks delusions and told him he was of “supernatural being”🤡🙄 I mean obviously he’s crazy to have fed into any of this stuff but it was a total shock and absolutely freaked me out. Also something that should probably get fixed within the app as he can’t be the only mentally ill loser using that shit. Before someone even suggests suing, I’m poor and my ex deserves to be in jail. He can rot for a bit and if he wants to sue when he gets out he can pay for that, that manchild is not my responsibility ever again💁🏻‍♀️

I can’t stress this enough- the entire world should be in therapy. After this nonsense I’m shocked I’m not institutionalized with grippy socks and an Easter basket of psych meds, but one of us apparently has to be the adult still- guess that’s me😏